I have been having a really hard month, emotionally. There's a lot of crap going on in my life, and frankly, I could be handling it better than I am. I was feeling pretty bad last night when I went to bed, and I was feeling bad again this morning when I woke up. I read for a little bit, but it was still really early and I was still tired (which I always am lately), so I ended up going back to sleep.
When I woke up a couple hours later, I felt better. The window was open with a beautiful breeze coming in, and the sun was shining on my face but not directly in my eyes. I was really comfortable and just feeling... content.
Then I remembered that while I was sleeping, I dreamed about seeing my baby niece (who I'm going to see this afternoon). In the dream, she came up to me and put her arms around my neck (or head, really, since she's not that coordinated with her little arms) and she gave me the biggest, tightest hug, so tight it almost hurt. And I felt better.
Isn't it amazing how wonderful children can make you feel. I think they are especially uplifting when you are close to them as you are with you niece. Right after my miscarriage my niece Kaity was the most comfort, I could just feel her love and spirit so strongly. I was always a little surprised that I loved spending time with a baby after losing my own, but there really is something special about a baby=) I hope you are feeling better soon! Love you lots!!
ReplyDeletehugs to you. I am sorry you have had a hard month. I am not sure what is going on, but I will have you in my thoughts. Keep your chin up. I had a hard winter and thought life wouldn't ever get better and slowly it has started too. I hope you start to see some happiness soon.
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